Soooo tired

Can't you see it on my face? well no .. you can't ... but i am :(

Monday was my first day of training in a real job environnement for my jewellery class. I have to go through 3 weeks before i get done! Meanwhile, i stay by my mom's house and .. damnit it's pain! The mix of my brother who keeps complaining that he's got nothing to do, that everything's boring and that he doesnt have any money ( which is miles from the thruth ), of his dog leaving hair everywhere so my clothes looks gross and dirty after i'd wear them once.. of the empty fridge.. of the fact that it IS really boring lol .. that i dont sleep so well .. that i'm not surrounded by my own stuff which keep me busy ... This whole mix of things is killing me =P

Well, tomorrow will be the final day of week 1 .. !  Two more to go. Damn it was stressful and frustrating the first days but it's getting better and my " employer " is telling me that i do a damn great job on repairing those jewels so it helps. Still, i can't wait to go back to school and get done with class. Only 4 lil months to go and i will be done :) !! YAY!

Then.. who knows =P Life's being a bitch about letting me know my future! So i dont know yet whats gonna happen. I've met a nice little fairy which is helping me making my way through all this to reach my goal and having my own workshop at home and launching my own jewellery brand could happen way sooner then i expected :) !

We'll see! Let's get the two next week over first! :)


Life is awesome :)

Well yeh, life is awesome.. at times :)

I guess after some shitty events recently good times are coming back ! Days at school are flying by so fast. I work so hard to get all my stuff done in time and faster then i'm supposed to so i can get done with school, have that precious piece of paper in my hands and move on to my life.

I'm starting my 3 weeks training august 23rd. I'm super excited to get a preview of what will be coming up for me if i work for someone after im done with school but i'm also stressed as i'm scared to break something and screw up big time.. whatever could turn out bad. I'm trying not to think about the negative that much lol but sometimes i can't avoid thinking it could go wrong =p

When i will be coming back to school there's going to be just some fun projects left and that's exciting! I will be working on personnal creations for the 4 months left i have to be there :)

Also i've met new people, awesome people that i cherish and truely hope will be part of my life for a long time.

I feel life will be blooming and bring me lots of good for just standing straight all this time through all the shit that came across in my life. I will be rewarded for my patience and efforts. For my strenght, which i've doubt sometimes but not anymore. Nothing's gonna stop me... !


Addiction ..

Well.. today i realised that i'm just totally ADDICTED to my car... I'm super handicaped without my car..

I had to get it towed from my current place to my hometown to get it fix, because of course, this bitch decided to die just a few days before i'd get back to school, just when i have absolutly no freakin money to get it fixed and that i already have 10 thousands problems causing my stress and hair loss already... Lol...  Life is just great sometimes isn't it?

Oh well, while i deeply hate it with all my evil soul, i miss my car and i wish it'd still be here :(   .. I feel vulnerable without it.

Tomorrow is going to suck .. really bad. Not only do i have to wake up at 5:30 am, i will have to take the bus ( which i didn't in years ) with smelly, weird, old, young, fucked ( add whichever other words you want here ) sort of people .. Because the only bus i can take to go to school is driving by at 6:55 am ..  How great! Plus .. ? i will have to wait 35 minutes at school before class does start.. Kill me someone, just please, kill me !!

6:55 am.. Sigh.. That's generally the time that i look at the clock and think to myself that i should get dressed and ready for class.. but then procrastinate 10 more minutes before doing so .. but for the next 2 or 3 days ( if the gods hate me ) it will be the time i will be sitting in a bus, uncomfortably on my way to school.

Please... make those days goes by fast!